The key of freedom ♥

Lets start my brand new year with my key of freedom, btw, Happy New Year, matey! Pretty hope im not late for this new year greeting : D

Can't believe im blogging this now, was supposed to be a last year post, and i was thinking just abandon it, but em just stupid excited for this, 2 of my 21st birthday present!!! muahahaaa, i know, is damn late since my birthday is on Sept!!!

lets the story began, honestly,  em just getting my 21st gold key last month.

Mum decided to gift me a gold key as one of my b'day present from her. I always wanted a rose gold key instead of those tacky gold key or common white gold, rose gold gives a rose, pink color on the jewellery, though rose gold is still not that common in M'sia.

We visited quite a number of jewellery stores, i still couldn't get the one i fond on at my first sight, so i rather wait until i discovered the one i fond on.

When every time when we passed by jewellery store, mum will stop over and have a look with those pendants, but im too fastidious, didn't fancy any one of them.

Then after, there was a day, me and mum headed down to 313@somerset, which are now one of my favourite shopping mall, we both saw this rose gold key with a star pendant, it is so dazzling. And so i made my choice at the first glance. I know otherwise mum will get me another one, which is also the latest xmas collection, an angel pendant as mum said im a white angel. LOL i admit what she said. =P

nice gift pack from SK Jewellery

 here comes the pendant :>

so lovey and nicey, don't you think so?

4 tiny diamonds on the star with a cutey rose gold key hanging on.

 

Besides, the coming one it came even more earlier than the key pendant.
A Alana Heart Charm from Swarovski, 21st bday gift from my beloved hubby, chosen by me and with the helps of mum, this's even glittering. you can either wear is as a pendant or with ur bracelet. :)

 

i was searching this before at pavilion KL, but the choice of charm are lesser which compare to here.

heart this so much too :>

again, thanks pretty much to my beloved mummy and boyfie for the gift. :D superb loving it. ♥

 

 hmmm...seriously feel my language skill and writing skill are leewaying...... gawdness :( madly upset.

maybe i shall talk more and blog more in order to keep it up. tsk tsk tsk.

em fell in love with the Garrett popcorn recently, just got one more bag ytd, simply tasty yummy :)

em was searching for a pair of kitty utensil,  now finally, but seems like kinda huge for me.

see how big the utensil it is, compare with my i-touch, doubled size.

im gonna to use it, not kidding :D will bring it to work everyday cos hosp's food court only provided disposable chopstick, im so clumsy in using chopstick esp for noodles and rice, except for sushi which idk why, so by using chopstick to have those food will doubled up my eating time, perhaps with this huge utensil, i can able to eat more faster even though i got a small mouth. >,< muahahaha

 thats all for today, see you soon :)

gonna cont' watching Gossip Girl now... 

HAVE YOUR DAY, muacks!

xoxo

Last but not the least for 2011♥

Harlo,here im back again. :) wanna do a short ending post before 2011 ends, but em got too limited of time.
December is always such a joyous and holiday month, but it ends very soon after today...new year coming, wow! 2012!world end??! life still have to goes on : P

So, darlings, how was ur Xmas last week? fantastic? owh, mine was so-so~ *,* worked in pm shift on xmas eve and am shift on xmas day ain't such a good thing to me, same comes to my new year eve. :(  as i always used to celebrate this both pleasing festival, anyway, wish i could save it to my chinese new year, and i could go back hometown that time. :D blessing....

as for shopaholic, December is also such a crazy shopping month too! everything, everywhere on SALE!SALE!SALE! how can you missed that?! am i right??
few days ago before xmas, me and xinyin decided to did some shopping in Orchard, as she wanted to feel the xmas ambiance there. ya, when comes to xmas, ppl always think of orchard since there used to have spectacular decoration by the roadside and shopping mall.

here comes Clarke Quay 1st, the day before we headed to Orchard, I recommended xinyin this my favourite night-life place in Sg. if you are clubber, i bet you will like this place!

  sitting by the breezy riverside, listening to the music, is kind of enjoyment after a busy day. 

 with mai all time favourite mini skirt and sneaker recently

** mini skirt from Taiwan

** sneaker from Forever 21

okay, next station~ Orchard Road desu~

infront of ION Orchard~

Tangs~

Paragon~

  

 Casual outfit of the day~

i dun remember what have i bought on the day, except for some tops and mummy's bday present. guess what? : P

i was crazy buying long sleeve tops since the weather turns so windy and cool recently, and i found i have no long sleeve tops when i wanted to wear other than my sweater's collection.

so they are my new collection recently~ but after that, the weather turns sunny,wtf, looks like i got no chance to wear now~ lollll

from left #GAP #G2000 #ZARA #ESPIRIT

#FOREVER 21 #DEMO

oh yea, and this~~

 favor too... #Garrett Popcorn

nicey ^^V

 

that's all for now :)

few more mins to 2012, any to-do list or wish list for the coming year?? mine? still thinking by the way :P 

so stay tuned :D

anyway, see yea next year~ 

♥ HAPPY NEW YEAR ♥

muacks ^^

10 Ways to Bring Meaning into Your Life

By Elisha Goldstein, PhD

More and more it seems like life can be so hectic. It's as if we purposely overload ourselves with more things than we could possibly ever accomplish.

Sometimes as I'm going to sleep I think about all the things I need to get done and when I'm awake during the day I think about all the things that need to get done. Take a shower, make coffee, eat breakfast, brush my teeth, go to work, etc... It's almost as if at the end of the day I can truly ask myself, "where did the day go?" Enough of these and I can ask myself the same questions in weeks, months, or even years!

So when I feel like these questions are coming up, I do some brief exercises that help bring me to the present moment and remind myself that I'm living.

1. For 5 minutes: Whatever you are doing, just do it slightly slower. At work we are all given tasks to do. One time per day, for 5 minutes do that task a little bit slower. Do not do the task in slow motion, or take breaks from the task, simply do it a little bit slower. 

 

2. Take 5 minutes at lunch to notice what you're eating. You can actually do this at an meal, or anytime you eat. You are going to notice what your food looks like, how it smells, feels, and tastes. As you pick up your food, notice the texture of it, is it bumpy, smooth, wet? Notice what you smell. As you take it in your mouth notice how it feels in your mouth, notice the tastes that are coming out of it, how your teeth break it down. As you swallow it, notice it going down your throat. Do the same with the drink. 

3. Take 3 minutes to just sit and notice your breath. Sit in a place of your choice, could be behind your desk, or anywhere. Close your eyes. For 3 minutes simply pay attention to your breath. For these 3 minutes your breath gets your undivided attention. If you notice yourself thinking about something, even the thought "why am I doing this stupid exercise", just notice that your're thinking that and then gently bring your attention back to your breath.

4. Wash the Dishes. If you're not used to doing dishes, there will be many benefits to this one. As you begin to wash the dishes, notice the texture of the plate and the warmth of the water on your hands. Inhale and notice if there is any scent. Listen to hear the rush of the water or any other sounds that are happening around you. Not only will you be able to practice being in the moment, but many of your family and friends will be thrilled with you. 

5. Take a Bath or Shower. Preferably a bath if you have one, but even with a shower, you can take your moment in the shower or bath to feel the warmth of the water or feel how your body is immersed in the water. How does your skin feel? Do you notice any smells? Is your hair wet. Just be in the moment and notice all your senses....breathe. 

6. Make Love Slightly Slower for a few moments. As you are making love to our significant other, take a moment to purposely move slightly slower. As you do this begin to mentally feel over all parts of your body. How your skin feels when touching his/hers, how are you breathing? Are you sweating? Is there a scent in the air. Take a moment and really be there making love.

7. Smell a flower for an extra breath. This one I love. Often times I will be passing by a flower and if I remember to smell it, I take an extra inhalation to really get the full experience of the scent. You will be surprised how much that extra inhalation makes a difference in the experience.

8. Be Silly. I'm serious;). Being silly allows your creative juices to flow and your creative juices is what life is all about. Letting yourself be silly can also be very relaxing and create joyful situations that are full of meaning. 

9. Write a letter to someone close to you... telling them how much you appreciate them. This is not a new idea by any stretch yet it is always worth mentioning since it is so meaningful. A letter that that person will always cherish.

10. Remind yourself that you are a miracle. This may be the most important. How they heck did any of us get here? When we break it down to nanotechnology and quantum physics, scientists are stumped to figure out the great mystery of us physically being here and interacting and creating symbols and concepts and communicating. 

It's boggling. That's why our moments on this earth are so precious and it is a wonderful gift to attempt to cultivate those moments in life that you consider to be sacred.

You get the idea... try it out.

 have a nice day! Merry Xmas! :>

我有话想说...

一直有些心事闷在心里，好像表达出来，所以不好意思，不管你想看也好，觉得不要也罢，我就是想说出来…

几个星期前，鼻子的伤口发炎，要巧不巧，正是在我从吉隆坡回家的那天，也刚好是我吃完抗生素的隔一天。我一直以为这是小事，所以看了医生再继续服药，我并没有多顾虑，继续我原先的计划，准时在12月开始上班。

原本庆幸，发炎的状况在开始上班的前一天就慢慢好转了，我庆幸，医生高兴，但他还是建议我进行次小型手术(incision & drainage) ，他要彻底的在清洗清洁多一次，不是紧急手术，时间随我安排，我答应了，就两星期后，好让我在工作上有所交待先。

天晓得，在忙碌上班后的第N天，我无意间发现局部发炎的状况慢慢在蔓延了，然而，鼻子上的植入体 (implant)本来就是很敏感的，也是细菌最爱的家~所以它们筑巢那儿了… 

也许你觉得小问题，不重要，不在意，那是你，不是我！这可是我辛辛苦苦痛了将近两个月的心血，你不会懂，你也永远不会知道我当时一个人的心情，感受及恐慌！对，虽然那只是手术中的一部分，其他的都没问题，可是，那是我最满意的部分，也许很多人不那么觉得。

医生说任何事，随时致电他诊所找他，谁料到，当时在上班的我拼命拨电话去，他却那天开会，没有门诊！！也许他的护士也不知道我的严重性，所以并没有告诉医生。

当时对我来说，简直是极度的没希望！所以，在上完班后，我直接以最快的方式到达医院，想说不如到急诊部，看有没有的安排前动手术，结果急诊部大排长龙，尽要我等上两到三小时，哪门子的急诊啊！我等不及，所以拒绝了，想说再碰碰运气，所以抱着希望往他的诊所奔去。终于，我到了，把我的情况告诉了护士，她终于看到严重性了，立刻带我去见正开完会要离开的医生。并没有出乎我说料，植入体也发炎了，唯一的办法就是再把它取出。

时间将近傍晚六时，我一个人在就要关门的诊所部门，等待他们为我安排紧急手术的手续，一个人，心里既是害怕，恐慌，担心又伤心，拖着刚下班疲惫到不行的身体，坐在诊所大厅里哭得上气不接下气 。我不知道，在这时候，有谁能陪着我。

手续办完后，我回家等待隔天动了手术。一路哭着到家，一心只希望能有个人可以在身边，那我不会那么害怕。所以我没有回家，到工作医院处理完事情后，我留下等欣宜下班，她是我当时的依靠，我依然伤心到不行，一看见她就抱着哭得忘我，感谢她陪着我哭逗着我笑，陪我走回那条当时我觉得很漫长的回家路。

爸爸打电话来安慰我，听见我的哭声，一时心急心疼，要妈咪当晚就跑来我家陪我过夜。他说我哭得像猪。

然而，手术当天，我异常冷静，没有再哭，也许是太饿了，手术竟然拖到将近傍晚才进行，可我从凌晨12点就禁食了也！后悔到不行，早知道就吃点早餐。

完全没哭是假的，我那么爱哭那么胆小那么怕痛，麻醉师还没跟我打针时，我就在哭了…我知道很丢脸，更何况还是在他们不晓得从哪里知道我也是护士后的消息。他们向我确认，我依然在哭。

他问：你为什么哭？害怕还是痛？

我说：都有。

当然，心里是在想着，为什么每次躺在手术台时，我都在说服自己是最后一次了，可都不是。这已经是第八次了，之前的几次，我都在告诉自己是最后一次了。更何况这次，又是为了什么呢？拿出我不想拿出的东西。又有谁愿意再躺上来一次。

无奈中，我睡着了。

当我被叫醒时，隐隐约约听到的是旁人全都在说“她是护士”“她是护士”，烦不烦！所以，我又睡回去。

一开眼，第一件事就是摸摸鼻梁，鼻子还在…我不知道为什么会这么想~

我第一样要求的东西就是我要看看那个植入体，也就是我的假高鼻梁，握着它，好伤心。

直到真正清醒后，我忽然开不起双眼，完全没办法挣开，还以为是太累，结果不是。

原本当晚就能出院的 ，但眼睛没办法挣开，我要求医生看看我的眼睛，足足等了两小时，护士来告诉我医生在手术室，好，我等，结果一等就是两个小时后~ 凌晨十二点半，一个助诊医生看了看说也许是太干，所以要护士帮我清洗再上药，护士小姐问，要留多一夜还是出院? 现在这么晚了，叫我怎么出院啊！

隔天一早，情况更糟，因为是白天，我眼睛更是张不开，痛得像快下了，还我哭得不得了。几个助诊医生看了情况，安排我到眼科做检查，全程我像个瞎子，眼睛都是闭着的，即使在回家路上。所以，诊断结果出来，是眼球刮伤，所谓的corneal ulcer

原因呢，就是因为院方的疏忽，不知道哪个笨蛋在我麻醉睡着后，眼睛没盖完的情况下，就把薄纱布粘在我眼睛上了，纱布吸水嘛，所以吸干了我眼睛的水，在我醒来时，又不斯文点，所以擦伤了我的眼球~ 而我不能睁开双眼，就连闭着眼睛都痛得要命。我第一次，无时无刻的向妈咪要止痛药吃，太痛苦了，像是快瞎掉，哭得走廊都听到。也因为这个疏忽我被逼住多一夜，再看了眼科，害我多花了马币MYR1000 来医眼睛！

眼科医生更是幽默了，他说这种情况很常见，虽然我看不到，还是多嘴的问他

“你是说你们医院这种疏忽很常见？”

“不，我的意思是手术后这样的情况很常有的。”

“是吗，这是我第八次手术了，可还是第一次被弄成这样也”

他无奈，我更无奈…

 

由于所有的事情发生得有点急，也没告诉其他人，结果，开始，在我还没来得及解释前，很多人都对我鼻子发炎这事作出了很多结论。

很厉害，因为连医生也都没法给我个确定的理由。

没错，也许食物问题 ，但我又在禁口。不好意思，我和医生读的是同一个论点，所以我并没有太多的禁忌，有人说不能吃鸡蛋鸡肉，可我手术后第二天医生就安排鸡蛋给我了，因为我们相信鸡蛋高蛋白质帮助伤口痊愈。

我知道虾，苏东等海鲜有毒。所以我尽量不碰。只是天知道，我哪天喝下的那口汤尽是用虾熬的呢？我辛苦了这么久，受尽这么多痛，难道我自己不会爱惜吗?难道我不要照顾吗? 谁都不想这样的事发生，不是吗? 

我拼命问医生是不是食物的问题，他回答不一定。他说上一次又是放真骨，又是放假骨的，风险当然大。会发炎其实不稀奇，更何况你现在是又加了植入体，所以发炎也是有可能的。毕竟手术时是比较复杂，不象一般手术，现在是两种情况在一起做。更何况你在医院上班，医院的细菌比哪里都多，所以风险更大。

现在，大家说的是个假设，并不是结论，可不可以不要在我还没开口时就下定论。我还来不及知道，原来大家都比我了解了。

对不起，我觉得安慰的话比起这些动听多了，虽然现在不需要了。我只希望大家不要在传下去了。

心里有点失落，当我最需要安慰关心时，却有人落井下石，畅谈了起来，让我听到好多不想听的东西。难道这么说，比较有成就感吗？

我不知道会不会有人看到这些东西后对号入座，因为其实我并不知道真正下这“结论”的人是谁，因为我不想知道他/她是谁，为什么要这么做，因为我在乎所有人，所以我怕知道后会太伤心。

其实我好奇，是不是注定了呢？
因为原先手术前，医生说要分成两次手术进行的，一次是放真骨，休息半年后再植入假骨，但最后他决定两个手术一起进行。我还以为这样可以省了一次手术，结果呢，还不是要开多一次刀拿出来，然后再等上半年~没差!

还有他原先预算的手术费用是新币$15,000++ 相等于马币大约要近MYR 40,000。还了全数才能动手术，结果出院时，费用竟$14,000，所以把$1000 退还回来，结果呢，这$1000 并没有就这样省了，这次的手术费用就刚好$1000++。 怎么这么巧~是医生预先算到了吗?开玩笑的！
所以是命中注定了！

最后，顺便让大家知道，我不会放弃，医生说要半年伤口才会痊愈，我还会再试，这次也许是别的了。 

141211♥

Owh,time flies! coming to the mid of december, and so forth, Xmas is closing , then 2011 is gonna end soon.

didn't realize that my last been here was few weeks ago, i thought my last update was only ytd story. : / crazy i know,ain't because i didn't have the sense of time, the reason that makes em in such a hectic life is the feverish condition of my nose's infection which i did mentioned on the previous post.

In addition, i have to deal with so many things in a limited time and working life is fxcking tired i should said, as what i felt is almost lifeless, cos you will be freaking tired after work, exhausted, energy-less, the only thing i wish to do is, sleeping after take bath.

yet, during last week, my time was fully booked by those annoying stuff.
my day-off, still i need to spent my time in traveled to SGH which takes 45 mins to reach there for check up. what a day-off, i still spent time in hosp what!
while i was in PM shift, i went all the way 45 mins train-traveled again just to take my work permit from Clarke Quay, then went to bank and blah blah blah stuff before attend to work in the afternoon.
the next day, AM shift, even nicer, i straight away rushed to SGH againnn after i finished work becos my implant infected.
what the enrich days!

that's all my 3 working days, and then followed by 2 weeks hospitalization leave now. : /

*why H.leave?? cos i went for a minor surgery after that, and doctor gimme 2 weeks MC,nice? no! feel superb sorry to my ward sister and stuff actually!*


worked 3 days and rest 2 weeks, the best employee ever! employer!

okay, about the story, i will explain next time.
i have pretty much in my mind which em wish to shout out!

Suppose to post up my latest new baby-stuff now, but lets left it for the coming post since now already 2:30AM :P im lil weary now *yawn*
teehee...

What a meaningless post. sowwiieeee~
in order to make this post lil meaningful,i decided to share out this photo which i dun think is a good capture anyway.

#orchardroad #ion #golden xmas tree #merry christmas

#snoopyresting #sunwaygiza

pinky-cross will come back soon :) see ya. muacks! ♥