我有话想说...

一直有些心事闷在心里，好像表达出来，所以不好意思，不管你想看也好，觉得不要也罢，我就是想说出来…

几个星期前，鼻子的伤口发炎，要巧不巧，正是在我从吉隆坡回家的那天，也刚好是我吃完抗生素的隔一天。我一直以为这是小事，所以看了医生再继续服药，我并没有多顾虑，继续我原先的计划，准时在12月开始上班。

原本庆幸，发炎的状况在开始上班的前一天就慢慢好转了，我庆幸，医生高兴，但他还是建议我进行次小型手术(incision & drainage) ，他要彻底的在清洗清洁多一次，不是紧急手术，时间随我安排，我答应了，就两星期后，好让我在工作上有所交待先。

天晓得，在忙碌上班后的第N天，我无意间发现局部发炎的状况慢慢在蔓延了，然而，鼻子上的植入体 (implant)本来就是很敏感的，也是细菌最爱的家~所以它们筑巢那儿了… 

也许你觉得小问题，不重要，不在意，那是你，不是我！这可是我辛辛苦苦痛了将近两个月的心血，你不会懂，你也永远不会知道我当时一个人的心情，感受及恐慌！对，虽然那只是手术中的一部分，其他的都没问题，可是，那是我最满意的部分，也许很多人不那么觉得。

医生说任何事，随时致电他诊所找他，谁料到，当时在上班的我拼命拨电话去，他却那天开会，没有门诊！！也许他的护士也不知道我的严重性，所以并没有告诉医生。

当时对我来说，简直是极度的没希望！所以，在上完班后，我直接以最快的方式到达医院，想说不如到急诊部，看有没有的安排前动手术，结果急诊部大排长龙，尽要我等上两到三小时，哪门子的急诊啊！我等不及，所以拒绝了，想说再碰碰运气，所以抱着希望往他的诊所奔去。终于，我到了，把我的情况告诉了护士，她终于看到严重性了，立刻带我去见正开完会要离开的医生。并没有出乎我说料，植入体也发炎了，唯一的办法就是再把它取出。

时间将近傍晚六时，我一个人在就要关门的诊所部门，等待他们为我安排紧急手术的手续，一个人，心里既是害怕，恐慌，担心又伤心，拖着刚下班疲惫到不行的身体，坐在诊所大厅里哭得上气不接下气 。我不知道，在这时候，有谁能陪着我。

手续办完后，我回家等待隔天动了手术。一路哭着到家，一心只希望能有个人可以在身边，那我不会那么害怕。所以我没有回家，到工作医院处理完事情后，我留下等欣宜下班，她是我当时的依靠，我依然伤心到不行，一看见她就抱着哭得忘我，感谢她陪着我哭逗着我笑，陪我走回那条当时我觉得很漫长的回家路。

爸爸打电话来安慰我，听见我的哭声，一时心急心疼，要妈咪当晚就跑来我家陪我过夜。他说我哭得像猪。

然而，手术当天，我异常冷静，没有再哭，也许是太饿了，手术竟然拖到将近傍晚才进行，可我从凌晨12点就禁食了也！后悔到不行，早知道就吃点早餐。

完全没哭是假的，我那么爱哭那么胆小那么怕痛，麻醉师还没跟我打针时，我就在哭了…我知道很丢脸，更何况还是在他们不晓得从哪里知道我也是护士后的消息。他们向我确认，我依然在哭。

他问：你为什么哭？害怕还是痛？

我说：都有。

当然，心里是在想着，为什么每次躺在手术台时，我都在说服自己是最后一次了，可都不是。这已经是第八次了，之前的几次，我都在告诉自己是最后一次了。更何况这次，又是为了什么呢？拿出我不想拿出的东西。又有谁愿意再躺上来一次。

无奈中，我睡着了。

当我被叫醒时，隐隐约约听到的是旁人全都在说“她是护士”“她是护士”，烦不烦！所以，我又睡回去。

一开眼，第一件事就是摸摸鼻梁，鼻子还在…我不知道为什么会这么想~

我第一样要求的东西就是我要看看那个植入体，也就是我的假高鼻梁，握着它，好伤心。

直到真正清醒后，我忽然开不起双眼，完全没办法挣开，还以为是太累，结果不是。

原本当晚就能出院的 ，但眼睛没办法挣开，我要求医生看看我的眼睛，足足等了两小时，护士来告诉我医生在手术室，好，我等，结果一等就是两个小时后~ 凌晨十二点半，一个助诊医生看了看说也许是太干，所以要护士帮我清洗再上药，护士小姐问，要留多一夜还是出院? 现在这么晚了，叫我怎么出院啊！

隔天一早，情况更糟，因为是白天，我眼睛更是张不开，痛得像快下了，还我哭得不得了。几个助诊医生看了情况，安排我到眼科做检查，全程我像个瞎子，眼睛都是闭着的，即使在回家路上。所以，诊断结果出来，是眼球刮伤，所谓的corneal ulcer

原因呢，就是因为院方的疏忽，不知道哪个笨蛋在我麻醉睡着后，眼睛没盖完的情况下，就把薄纱布粘在我眼睛上了，纱布吸水嘛，所以吸干了我眼睛的水，在我醒来时，又不斯文点，所以擦伤了我的眼球~ 而我不能睁开双眼，就连闭着眼睛都痛得要命。我第一次，无时无刻的向妈咪要止痛药吃，太痛苦了，像是快瞎掉，哭得走廊都听到。也因为这个疏忽我被逼住多一夜，再看了眼科，害我多花了马币MYR1000 来医眼睛！

眼科医生更是幽默了，他说这种情况很常见，虽然我看不到，还是多嘴的问他

“你是说你们医院这种疏忽很常见？”

“不，我的意思是手术后这样的情况很常有的。”

“是吗，这是我第八次手术了，可还是第一次被弄成这样也”

他无奈，我更无奈…

 

由于所有的事情发生得有点急，也没告诉其他人，结果，开始，在我还没来得及解释前，很多人都对我鼻子发炎这事作出了很多结论。

很厉害，因为连医生也都没法给我个确定的理由。

没错，也许食物问题 ，但我又在禁口。不好意思，我和医生读的是同一个论点，所以我并没有太多的禁忌，有人说不能吃鸡蛋鸡肉，可我手术后第二天医生就安排鸡蛋给我了，因为我们相信鸡蛋高蛋白质帮助伤口痊愈。

我知道虾，苏东等海鲜有毒。所以我尽量不碰。只是天知道，我哪天喝下的那口汤尽是用虾熬的呢？我辛苦了这么久，受尽这么多痛，难道我自己不会爱惜吗?难道我不要照顾吗? 谁都不想这样的事发生，不是吗? 

我拼命问医生是不是食物的问题，他回答不一定。他说上一次又是放真骨，又是放假骨的，风险当然大。会发炎其实不稀奇，更何况你现在是又加了植入体，所以发炎也是有可能的。毕竟手术时是比较复杂，不象一般手术，现在是两种情况在一起做。更何况你在医院上班，医院的细菌比哪里都多，所以风险更大。

现在，大家说的是个假设，并不是结论，可不可以不要在我还没开口时就下定论。我还来不及知道，原来大家都比我了解了。

对不起，我觉得安慰的话比起这些动听多了，虽然现在不需要了。我只希望大家不要在传下去了。

心里有点失落，当我最需要安慰关心时，却有人落井下石，畅谈了起来，让我听到好多不想听的东西。难道这么说，比较有成就感吗？

我不知道会不会有人看到这些东西后对号入座，因为其实我并不知道真正下这“结论”的人是谁，因为我不想知道他/她是谁，为什么要这么做，因为我在乎所有人，所以我怕知道后会太伤心。

其实我好奇，是不是注定了呢？
因为原先手术前，医生说要分成两次手术进行的，一次是放真骨，休息半年后再植入假骨，但最后他决定两个手术一起进行。我还以为这样可以省了一次手术，结果呢，还不是要开多一次刀拿出来，然后再等上半年~没差!

还有他原先预算的手术费用是新币$15,000++ 相等于马币大约要近MYR 40,000。还了全数才能动手术，结果出院时，费用竟$14,000，所以把$1000 退还回来，结果呢，这$1000 并没有就这样省了，这次的手术费用就刚好$1000++。 怎么这么巧~是医生预先算到了吗?开玩笑的！
所以是命中注定了！

最后，顺便让大家知道，我不会放弃，医生说要半年伤口才会痊愈，我还会再试，这次也许是别的了。 

141211♥

Owh,time flies! coming to the mid of december, and so forth, Xmas is closing , then 2011 is gonna end soon.

didn't realize that my last been here was few weeks ago, i thought my last update was only ytd story. : / crazy i know,ain't because i didn't have the sense of time, the reason that makes em in such a hectic life is the feverish condition of my nose's infection which i did mentioned on the previous post.

In addition, i have to deal with so many things in a limited time and working life is fxcking tired i should said, as what i felt is almost lifeless, cos you will be freaking tired after work, exhausted, energy-less, the only thing i wish to do is, sleeping after take bath.

yet, during last week, my time was fully booked by those annoying stuff.
my day-off, still i need to spent my time in traveled to SGH which takes 45 mins to reach there for check up. what a day-off, i still spent time in hosp what!
while i was in PM shift, i went all the way 45 mins train-traveled again just to take my work permit from Clarke Quay, then went to bank and blah blah blah stuff before attend to work in the afternoon.
the next day, AM shift, even nicer, i straight away rushed to SGH againnn after i finished work becos my implant infected.
what the enrich days!

that's all my 3 working days, and then followed by 2 weeks hospitalization leave now. : /

*why H.leave?? cos i went for a minor surgery after that, and doctor gimme 2 weeks MC,nice? no! feel superb sorry to my ward sister and stuff actually!*


worked 3 days and rest 2 weeks, the best employee ever! employer!

okay, about the story, i will explain next time.
i have pretty much in my mind which em wish to shout out!

Suppose to post up my latest new baby-stuff now, but lets left it for the coming post since now already 2:30AM :P im lil weary now *yawn*
teehee...

What a meaningless post. sowwiieeee~
in order to make this post lil meaningful,i decided to share out this photo which i dun think is a good capture anyway.

#orchardroad #ion #golden xmas tree #merry christmas

#snoopyresting #sunwaygiza

pinky-cross will come back soon :) see ya. muacks! ♥

A story of a pencil and an eraser

I saw this meaningful story, and i like it so much so decided to share here with you.

This is a story of a pencil and an eraser.

Pencil: I'm sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad.

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. 

Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..." 

"we will never know the love of our parents for us till the day we become parents..."

Pencilly~

The pencil is a splendid thing

For which there's no replacer.

But better than the pencil is

The little pink eraser.

                  

                       -- Doug Florian

✈ i have gone through.

im getting well :)

 

1st time showing out this thingy, feel like insecure. : /

i know is ugly thou.

for the past one week, i was in a totally confused and frail condition.
i have been told to update my condition once im awake and once i able to typing.
but sorry friends, i failed to do so cos i was totally in a blurred state :( until a few days after i came back home from hosp.
even i told that will try to blog it while im in ward, but i couldn't get any interest on doing anything, not even iphone and ipod, and my smurf's village as well...been abandoned my smurf for so long :[
i keep sleeping...sleeping and sleeping...and dun even know how could i slept for so many days and including the days after i came back, i still slept for about 2 days. Zzz

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

i have 2 wounds over my body which is the hips area and one more new cut over the ribs :(
wounds on face as well and inside the mouth : \ 
so this actually made me can't sit, stand,walk, eat, bite, talk, breath thru nose,and more and more...
im totally dependent T___T

and how much i suffered couldn't describe out here thru words.
i was lil crumble when the doctor try to fill up some tubes of blood for lab test, and my blood was not enough after few tubes, and no choice she has to puncture again.
when the anesthetist going to insert a branula into my vein, and the vein is too small, so no choice to probe again and again. T_____________T
ended up, my both hands were full with plaster. : /

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

the moment i woke up from recovery room, the only thing i could feel is PAIN. SEVERE PAIN all over the wounds!
nurse asked me pain score 1-10 and planned to inject some pain killer for me. Morphine injected and my pain still never get relief at all. 
still the moment i was push out from the recov room, and saw my mum was waiting outside, i started to tears drop, and there's the only way i can told my mum that i was in such pain.
but as you know, cry, cough,etc make the pressure increase and this will only end up causing more pain to myself.
i been told that the cuts over the ribs will be the most painful wounds for me, told by a senior staff nurse in the ward. so, i was quite worried about this before the surgery.
in fact, the most painful wounds is the one located at hips!the painfulness even made me wake up at night and i couldn't stay my leg straight, i have to bend it all the time to reduce lil pain and only strong medicine can able to kill the pain.
the surgeon told me it's because too much of bone has been taken out and of course some injury to the surround tissues and nerves, plus this is the second time i did this bone grafting from the exactly same site, so basically it's double injury to that area. D:

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

due to the previous experience, i know that surgeon will only let me discharge when i could able walk and eat (only swallow liquid-type food), so i requested to take out the urine catheter and tried myself very hard to get down from bed and walk to bathroom on the 3rd day, again my tears drop down even thou i know i shouldn't cry, but it happened naturally because of severe pain.
plus, the anesthesia effect made me nauseated few days after surgery and when i started vomit, it cause more pressure and pain at my nose and hips' wound. i was seriously suffered like hell.
and for my every single breathe, i have to place a small pillow over the chest to breath and couldn't take deep breath as well, to reduce the pain over the chest's wounds.

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

im breathing thru mouth cos my nose all blocked, it makes my mouth dry always so i have to wake up every hour to drop a few drops of water into my mouth to moisturize it.
but when im eating i can't breath @,@ that's y i always suffocating while eating or drinking. this is worse too!
i can only swallow soft-liquid-type foods, no biting and no cold drinks. *i miss grass jelly milk tea with bubble by chatime* i even difficult in swallowing medicine, so the nurse punch it and add with some syrup to make it sweet in stead of bitter, but still i dun have the breath to suck in thru straw.  :[

 this is the dinner the served me the day before surgery. since im staying at ward A1, so i have more choice for meal. i ordered this black pepper chicken with mushroom soup and it's tasty ^^

this is what they served me after operation. T___T

 big differences and i have no choice! 

all blanded and blended thingy! yakk!

have to finish up at least half in every meal in order to "get release" home by the surgeon.

 

 the wound over my hips *in case anyone misunderstood this, im not naked*

This is more longer than the previous scar, but i haven't open out both water-proof dressing and see how long is the scar, should do it one day before going for check up.

open up and see and do the dressing my own since i have extra cotton and patches.

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

okay, the pain even last until now im still paining, this is the reason y i can't stand and walk for the past few days. 

now, im like in such a prematurely senile status! urgghhh!
i can't sit for too long, stand more than 3 mins,and i walk slow like an old folks! T_________T
i have no idea why till now im still feeling dizzy especially when get up from bed, mum said maybe anemia. :C
i almost fainted inside bathroom few times when i get up and go by my own. *i hate it*
have to give some spacing for rest in between when i go bathroom take bath, wash face, mouth cleasing...
i can't do it one shot, whereby i will feel extremely exhausted and my whole body started to stab pain within 3 mins time. this is exactly like an old folk do. WTH with me!!!
and i can't sit straight for a long period, i have to lie on something, i can't walk for a distance, not even from my room to the kitchen downstairs, i feel extremely exhausted and start to giddy zomg!

what the hell happened on me?! i want back my pretty healthy body!pls!!
im such a energetic girl and i can shop for the whole day long!!! okay, i miss shopping.
 

maybe they're one of the reason??

i have 6 type of medicine plus one more bottle codeine tables for chronic pain.

and this is my snacks.

since i have no more food choice, my lunch and dinner is forever plain porridge, i mean for now!

so when i feel like eating, this is all my snacks with mashed potato, soya, and pudding =D

the only soft thingy i can have =[

iphone casing by babe yin. thanks for this and the magazine you bought.

and thankiu so much for my relatives, all gave me so generous angpao and lotsa tonic.

and all my friends for the wishes =)

your wishes have made me even stronger! : >

and here, i have to thank you so so much to my dear mummy,

she acc me through out this whole process

take good care for me, bringing me and giving so much of love to me.

the task of caring me is such tough, and my mum really did it well. =)

in order to ease her and let her have a good sleep at night, 

i used to get up and walk very slowly by myself whereby she actually not allowed me to do so cos i always dizzy after get up.

she really take good care of me =)

mummy, thank you and i love you ♥♥♥

family support is always the most important part, and i received the 100% from my family.

there is still lotsa i have suffered and experienced, i just couldn't describe all thru words here.

the purpose of writing this post ain't to get sympathy or to showing off anything.

Im writing for my own in this such an unforgettable and tough days, 
✈ i have gone thru. =')

strong girl shaine

It's 17 Oct *deep breath* 

i had get ready myself physically and emotionally. 

strong girl,shaine. i know you can do it ='D

bring along a starhub broadband, perhaps i get the internet access there and i should able to blog during the coming few days or i should say perhaps the nurse allow me to use lappie in ward.lolx

i miss my long and lil wave hair, now my hair is just maybe 10cm shorter than the hair in this photo. 

T_____T

rainbow after the raining day

after gone through some harass stuff, i know i have grew up :*]

i love buzzy life...hmmm...as well as i can handle it, i appreciate, but the precondition is, must be free from those annoying stuff, then should be okay. I was plagued by those problems and it really driving me crazzzyyyyy this few days fml.

now, finally, i settled it with my courage and my courage.it ain't easy to made such decision while everyone is looking at me, my every single steps makes different and ppl will comments, when i fall down, ppl will laugh at me : / though i knew i should live for my own, shouldn't bother so much but as human being, everyone care about other's opinion,am i right?!

as i grew up, i know i should take the responsible for myself, my life, my health as well.

i was thinking of don't want to give more burden to you all, thats y i just silently accepted it just for your convenience, in fact i doesn't want to do so and i haven't get prepared yet for the surgery. I well knew that the post-op discomfort and pain will be torture me like hell.while everytime when i thinking of the pass experience, i cried. 

so as long as it's convenience for you, i decided to keep on persuade myself.

but now, thank god, i got such courage to speak out to delay the surgery till after my bday. thanks dad and mum, u guys accepted my opinion and let me make my own decision for this. thank's :) it's superx hard for me to gain this courage to shout out. i was always a mummy's girl, where they made every single decision for my check up condition.

on the other hand, i had make another great decision in my life. and now im not JOBLESS =D hmmm....i should be glad that the whole job applying process was that smooth... just perhaps that my career can be that smooth tooooooo** good luck for myself!!

now, im looking forward to meet my bi and dearest darlingss and babess.....

bi is coming back ^_____^ freaking happy! yuuuuuhoooooo~ wish to see you soon...muacks!

and i m planning to go KL meeting my babes and darling during my bday time =))) im sooo excited, can't wait till the day to come! oh yayy! 

i want outings i love gatherings!!! muacks muacks!

xoxo

it‘s my thought

time flies in the daily hectic life. it is 26th June, the time passed insensibly just like i was sitting my licensing exam yesterday but in fact it was a 10 days ago story and at this moments i just perhaps the time can be slower down and i have much time to span with my dear friends, darling and everything happened here expt my working time. fml. sorry to said that. even though i used to complaint those things happened here which made my life suck to the max but still i started to miss this place although i haven't leave yet. i noe im fucking contradiction but i don't care.i just wanna to express my thought and say it out loud "I WILL BE FREAKING MISS YOU ALL,those things which happened in my life and those people i met no matter you had colored my life or made my life miserable." idk whether you guys will be missing me or i should asked maybe you still remember me in the future. no matter it's, you are in my heart now and the rest of my life. im thinking anything can i do during this two weeks in stead of posting-hostel-sleep? shall i plan on doing something useful. : / well, just leave it behind my thought in this moment, i got a bevy of stuff have to pack. seeing all my friends had started to packed and move and i wonder when should i start and the most important problem is how to start it? my stuff is berry berry a lot. : [ i realized my achievement is getting lesser and lesser month by month. oh no, i doesn't mean that : < seriously! and i tried to updated my bloggie everytime even i had limited time, and i doesn't want to neglect my bloggie and let it lie waste. so i finger crossed  i will blogging more often then. that's all for today. have a nice weekday for the coming week, dear readers ♥

de 20s 30s 40s

 

i had  a good time with my dearest family ( :

life can be so great to be with you all.

LIFE IS TOO SHORT

To wake up in the morning with regrets. 

So, love the people who treat you right,

forgive the ones who don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said it will be easy, they just promised

It would be worth it……..

chicky chicky chicky

stuck inside bi's huz.alone. :S

hmmmm..... : ( my pretty weekend gone? nope! i cant let this happened on me. oh no!

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headed out with bi and his gang ytd night.
went Woo Ga Chon BBQ Korean restaurant for dinner @ opposite Sunway Pyramid.

the shopie facia is inconspicuous enough. =p
will blog bout this soon after i got back my mood < :
my stomach didn't work good ytd. keep on cramping.fml.
so never had much for dinner. only small portion i took.
but taste good ( = 


Sunway TGV for movie PAUL. 
i never heard bout this movie until the moment i walked into the cinema and watched it.
since FF5 was full and Priest isn't my favourite type of movie.
so bi brought me for PAUL.

this alien is damn stupid funny!! 
you guys should watch this beside FF5.

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year3 sem3 posting season gone. was that my last posting?

sometimes i do hope YES. getting tired on working weh.

i em still studying wat,why m i working so much neh?

thus,i'll start to work soon once i graduated, rite?

dunno.

i know i need experience : / 

FML.

graduating soon. i cant belief that soon i need to start to work. earn money. 

that is another degree of my life. i grew up. right?!

godness. no way. i want back my study life, but without exam, pls!

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2 years ago, ppl like to asked me 

" why you joined nursing? your interest? oh, it must be ur ambition since small"

1 years ago, ppl asked

" how do you find nursing? great? what bout ur result? nowadays, nurses also hard in finding job........"

N O W,ppl asking me

" so, where will you work after graduated? or con't study? "

my answer is.....

not necessary i need to work. especially as a registered-nurse. 

i got my dreams. absolutely. 

but...

shall i proceed? 

*throw back a big question-mark" ???

mayb i should be a good-daddy-mummy-girl.

which means back to my nursing track. 

am i really suit with this career?

: C / :D

gimme answer? i tired of answering myself.

its annoying. =' (

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haiyo, man! moody again. ain't like me,right?? 
my mood is just like the weather recently. elusively. 
can't let this driving my mood. : ]

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babe yin is coming KL tonight.
gotta head out with babe yin and babe ann later. yeah!
so hopefully......
tonight is a good nite for meeeeeeee ( :

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okay, now, roll back the page to top of this post.
teehee....nothing serious. just to spot on my new wardrobe baby.
one more collection of tube dress, red cloths of mine. =D
grabbed it from MISS SELFRIDGE.

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btw, gonna get myself this powder form foundation. by shiseido maquillage.

the end .

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回忆 抽屉

几天前,偶然在宿舍衣柜里发现到一串钥匙, 一直沉睡着的家钥匙...
里面其中有把小钥匙,很久很久都没开过了.....它沉睡了好久好久...我却一直忽略了它~

就在这几天,我回来了....找了时间,打开了那个也沉睡了好久好久的抽屉, 里头满满的回忆都拥了出来....
我才发现原来我一直都没有遗忘它们,只是一直收在内心,静静的躺着~ 成了一成厚厚的底子...是美好的,愉快的,感动的...

抽屉里装了几个盒子,每个盒子的回忆都不同,都精彩!
打开第一个盒子, 我看见了他送的99颗爱心~ 和 很多很多的纸条...
顿时想起了那时的画面.....    只能说,当年的我们 都还天真~

打开 了第二个盒子, 里面装着满满的星星, 我忘了有几颗.....但,每颗星星里都写满了字~

第三个盒子, 用了我最长的时间读完....里面放着满满的信件...
这是我在中学 高一的那年, 朋友知道我要去动手术后, 大家都写封信给我,祝福我.... 
因为怕我闷, 刘 还写了好几封,要我带去医院,每天开一封出来看呢~  感动死了!
像我那么泪腺发达,容易掉泪的人,每每看到一次这些信件,就感动流泪~ lolll :' )

中学时的绰号 还真是 夸张 多~ 多得 那些外号是怎么来的 都记不清了....
就像 这两封啦 是我的好姐妹 写的 ^___^ 绰号还真是不客气 的写了 很多嘛~ 

这是一千只纸鹤
是他在知道我要去动手术后,用了三天的时间 自己折出来的~ 又是另一份的感动! 我好幸福 \^,^/
但我忘了,纸鹤, 是能祝福人 早日康复呢? 还是许愿用的啊?
还记得, 某人知道了以后, 还闹说... "早知道他要折一千只纸鹤,我就要折一千零一只给你!!"      哈哈

 

这个娃娃 是另个他 送的
谢谢他 在我住院时 陪着我
因为我怕打针 所以他说 "你就想象那些针不是打在你身上,是打在这只娃娃的身上,你就不觉得那么痛了.."  哈哈 ~ 有点傻,但谢谢你^__^ 他还说 "这只娃娃就是我, 陪着你" 
对,它陪了我好久, 直到了现在的他 出现, 这只娃娃在我床上的地位, 才渐渐的被另只 大熊熊霸占了......

这只铅笔 是朋友送的
很有意思 因为它和我即将要胜任的 职业 很想象, 所以我 很喜欢 ♥

朋友,还记得这张相片,这个相框吗~
背后 有好多好多的故事, 一起奋斗,一起努力, 把 活动搞好, 心酸快乐 只有我们亲身体验 才了解 : >
也因为了它 我认识了他....

还有这张 拍得很美 我们都笑得很灿烂 : D

这是我的姐妹们 送的~ 很可爱 哟!

bi 送我的...但我忘了是几时了~ 

i love teddy bear ♥

 

 还有 这个, 是两年前 bi 送给我的生日礼物~ 当时有点惊讶! 意想不到的惊喜!

谢谢bi, 因为知道我喜欢的precious moment 和喜欢音乐盒

 而送的! 又是 感动得要命的一次!!

很美吧... : )

今天分享了一些藏放,摆放在我房间的宝贝们

最后是一张 很有感觉的相片

你们,还记得吗~ "被风吹过的夏天"

超级的有感, 学校的操场, 这棵大树下....有许多我们一起的回忆

 谢谢你们,

 让我的中学生涯不孤单,不寂寞

 让我知道什么才是真正的义气

 让我尝到了朋友之间真正的友谊

 让我体会到了来自你们无数的感动

 让我的生活 多姿多彩 ♥

还有好多 说不完的话 说不出的感动

一路走来 你们的陪伴 是我生活的氧气

你们现在过得好吗? 我还想念你们....我们几时才能见面呢? 

下次 见咯 *^o^/ bye. 

need you now!

its a quarter to 3 am, im all alone and i NEED YOU NOW.........................
made a lil changes...im in love with this song very much.
gosh! is MONDAY!!! i got a feeling of "monday blue" : C
oh well, why am i here? i have no idea what to blog about, just feel like updating my bloggie.
by right i have plenty of stuff can update, but don't feel like do it now. leave it for the coming post then.

i can feel that my ass is glued on OLD TOWN chair right now. i'd been sitting here facing my lappie for more than 2 hours!!! gosh!
still waiting for bi to finish one-of-his-favourite-stuff  BASKETBALL.
he promised me won't more than 2 hours, but now T_____T''
im tired yet sleepy. bring me home lah!!

between, gotta say :
hello,K. D'sara. im back and so ta-ta to Malacca.
finally, i finished my Malacca posting, back to K.D. the place where more familiar for me which compare with Malacca.
but i can sense that the coming week and month is going to be a hectic month for me too. :'(
somehow i wish to have a break in stead of working for quite a long period.

feel like wanna have some new changes in my life.
maybe a new kitty bedsheet?

lol.end up i'll be more loving my bed and sleep more than nowadays,i guess!

okay. gotta leave now.
nitez, earthling ( :  sweet dreams and i still gotta wait...and wait...and wait....hopefully won't be that late. : /