The key of freedom ♥

Lets start my brand new year with my key of freedom, btw, Happy New Year, matey! Pretty hope im not late for this new year greeting : D

Can't believe im blogging this now, was supposed to be a last year post, and i was thinking just abandon it, but em just stupid excited for this, 2 of my 21st birthday present!!! muahahaaa, i know, is damn late since my birthday is on Sept!!!

lets the story began, honestly,  em just getting my 21st gold key last month.

Mum decided to gift me a gold key as one of my b'day present from her. I always wanted a rose gold key instead of those tacky gold key or common white gold, rose gold gives a rose, pink color on the jewellery, though rose gold is still not that common in M'sia.

We visited quite a number of jewellery stores, i still couldn't get the one i fond on at my first sight, so i rather wait until i discovered the one i fond on.

When every time when we passed by jewellery store, mum will stop over and have a look with those pendants, but im too fastidious, didn't fancy any one of them.

Then after, there was a day, me and mum headed down to 313@somerset, which are now one of my favourite shopping mall, we both saw this rose gold key with a star pendant, it is so dazzling. And so i made my choice at the first glance. I know otherwise mum will get me another one, which is also the latest xmas collection, an angel pendant as mum said im a white angel. LOL i admit what she said. =P

nice gift pack from SK Jewellery

 here comes the pendant :>

so lovey and nicey, don't you think so?

4 tiny diamonds on the star with a cutey rose gold key hanging on.

 

Besides, the coming one it came even more earlier than the key pendant.
A Alana Heart Charm from Swarovski, 21st bday gift from my beloved hubby, chosen by me and with the helps of mum, this's even glittering. you can either wear is as a pendant or with ur bracelet. :)

 

i was searching this before at pavilion KL, but the choice of charm are lesser which compare to here.

heart this so much too :>

again, thanks pretty much to my beloved mummy and boyfie for the gift. :D superb loving it. ♥

 

 hmmm...seriously feel my language skill and writing skill are leewaying...... gawdness :( madly upset.

maybe i shall talk more and blog more in order to keep it up. tsk tsk tsk.

em fell in love with the Garrett popcorn recently, just got one more bag ytd, simply tasty yummy :)

em was searching for a pair of kitty utensil,  now finally, but seems like kinda huge for me.

see how big the utensil it is, compare with my i-touch, doubled size.

im gonna to use it, not kidding :D will bring it to work everyday cos hosp's food court only provided disposable chopstick, im so clumsy in using chopstick esp for noodles and rice, except for sushi which idk why, so by using chopstick to have those food will doubled up my eating time, perhaps with this huge utensil, i can able to eat more faster even though i got a small mouth. >,< muahahaha

 thats all for today, see you soon :)

gonna cont' watching Gossip Girl now... 

HAVE YOUR DAY, muacks!

xoxo

Brand new life

say hi to december, say hi to my new life. :D

i pretty hope everything goes smooth here and im should able cope it well. 

i was quite stormy yesterday, and i miss my family and you so much! * i bet you know who are the one* 

and i know my parents are superb missing me now.

they called me last night, and knew about my condition now, especially my "post-operation" condition, they was soo worry bout, and keep on asking me to postpone the job again. 

i got post-op infection in my nose, and i have to go for follow up and have some painful procedure done to drain out the bloody abscess. D: this makes my parents get extra worry.

when everytime, i heard their voice while they calling, i was holding my tears, pretending to be strong.

when the moments mum telling me "girl, you are a strong girl, you are so brave, but im still so worry about you, and i miss you so much" i heard mum choking back her tears, but i still pretending, i smile and told her im fine, im alright,bla bla,bla......and my tears started to drop too.

sorry, i ain't strong enough :'(   i miss you too.

okay, sorry for my-out-of-control-feelings. back to the topic.

the coming december will be my very first job experience. i have to move in sg few days earlier in order to done some procedure. i think it's good for me so i can start coping with the lifestyle 1st,what lifestyle? long-range walking and standing lifestyle. 

have been a long period i nvr stand and walk for so long. those days my shopathon couldn't compare with nowsday long-range walking. i used to shopping whole day long for continuous few days time, and i won't feel tired or any leg discomfort unless the shoe makes my leg pain. but, now, i got leg pain everyday. 

they are a part of my new world *sweet sweet*

i always wanted to pinkish my room, this is kind of dreamy and romantic for me : >

smurf and puppy by boyfie, puppy need to take bath @,@

  

took my uniform yesterday with 2 pair of shoes.

good fabric material, i guess should be hard to dry up since this few days was raining.

i was so in love with the Xmas edition mug and tumbler by starbuck.

it's so nice with the red color Xmas draw printed.

since i got a starbuck tumbler present by Ann babe last year Xmas, now...

thanks for boyfie for this Xmas gift in advance :>

those stuff which acc me recently. 

handbags, perfume and canvas shoe.

loving the photo beside, i got a nice hair color now! yeepee!!

 one of my favour place here. Clarke Quay.

i was there today, not for shopping but for my working pass in Ministry of Manpower which is nearby there.

the MOM i went is located at level 4, which got a super duple nice scenery from the building.

photo taken few days ago when i met up with babes...yin and zih at a new cafe located in BP called 

"BO EIGHT TEA" 

which is now the only shop that selling thousand layer cake in BP, but as we tasted, not that nice as Malacca one and it melt so damn stupid fast! X____X 

-sorry, doesn't mean to criticize it, this is a customer feedback-

beloved boyfie, we used to quarrel everyday when we never meet up for a period of time.

i miss you badly, i wish you know it, and i doesn't mean to argue with you each time, i feel bad.

please accept my apologize. 죄송.

lastly, self-portrait in mai room with mai this smurf which was gifted by boyfie, so i named it khoochy,since smurf family have Brainy, Clumsy, Grouchy,etc... haha kidding.

smile, keep smiling, this is the best medicine in the world.

the end for now.

pinky cross to post up convo photos either bloggie or fb. i nvr forget it. ^___^

xoxo

Officially Graduated!

First of all, i would like to Congratz to all my group's mate, Happy Graduation!
Now, finally, i have graduated :')
Throughout the whole 3 years, i been work hard, study hard for everything. As you know, i always wanted to give up, felt like have joined a wrong course. Regret to the max but still i finished it.
 i used to be the one that others always think that i might give up and quit, they thought i can't able to survive in this tough job. i have to admit, sometimes, i do think so. nursing isn't easy like what i think before i joined. as most of my friends knew, i was regret joining when the 1st day of orientation! so can you imaging throughout the whole 3 yrs, i have been regretting!

thank god, i got my family, friends, and bi who always support me and give me so much of loves. Thank you so much!
and thanks a lot to my lecturers and clinical instructors, thanks for the good comment that made myself more confident and im glad that my result always good than i expected, this made me moves on too.

Things always can't be smooth like what we expected, i did face so much of  "choke point" which made me down to the deepness... studies, assignments, internship, sucks management, hostel,etc...

again, i would like to thanks to my parents, family who gave me not only financial support but also full spirit support along the 3 years time.
thanks to boyfie, who take care of me and gave me 100% of support too, thanks him for not giving me up, i used to vented my anger on him, but still he is very patient to me.
thanks for those who had make me happy,make me laugh, because of you, i have a great college life.
and thanks for those who had make me sad, make me cry too,because of you, i learns a lot and i realize how reality of a person can be.
thanks to the suck management too, because of you, i knew how can a management be suck in this way. :P

lastly, i should say, i have a wonderful and meaningful moments throughout my whole 3 years college life. i really learnt so much, not only from the nursing discipline but everything. =)

：：：Best of luck for a wonderful future. : ) ：：：

p/s : convocation photos coming up soon, stay tuned for more photos : >

✈ i have gone through.

im getting well :)

 

1st time showing out this thingy, feel like insecure. : /

i know is ugly thou.

for the past one week, i was in a totally confused and frail condition.
i have been told to update my condition once im awake and once i able to typing.
but sorry friends, i failed to do so cos i was totally in a blurred state :( until a few days after i came back home from hosp.
even i told that will try to blog it while im in ward, but i couldn't get any interest on doing anything, not even iphone and ipod, and my smurf's village as well...been abandoned my smurf for so long :[
i keep sleeping...sleeping and sleeping...and dun even know how could i slept for so many days and including the days after i came back, i still slept for about 2 days. Zzz

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

i have 2 wounds over my body which is the hips area and one more new cut over the ribs :(
wounds on face as well and inside the mouth : \ 
so this actually made me can't sit, stand,walk, eat, bite, talk, breath thru nose,and more and more...
im totally dependent T___T

and how much i suffered couldn't describe out here thru words.
i was lil crumble when the doctor try to fill up some tubes of blood for lab test, and my blood was not enough after few tubes, and no choice she has to puncture again.
when the anesthetist going to insert a branula into my vein, and the vein is too small, so no choice to probe again and again. T_____________T
ended up, my both hands were full with plaster. : /

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

the moment i woke up from recovery room, the only thing i could feel is PAIN. SEVERE PAIN all over the wounds!
nurse asked me pain score 1-10 and planned to inject some pain killer for me. Morphine injected and my pain still never get relief at all. 
still the moment i was push out from the recov room, and saw my mum was waiting outside, i started to tears drop, and there's the only way i can told my mum that i was in such pain.
but as you know, cry, cough,etc make the pressure increase and this will only end up causing more pain to myself.
i been told that the cuts over the ribs will be the most painful wounds for me, told by a senior staff nurse in the ward. so, i was quite worried about this before the surgery.
in fact, the most painful wounds is the one located at hips!the painfulness even made me wake up at night and i couldn't stay my leg straight, i have to bend it all the time to reduce lil pain and only strong medicine can able to kill the pain.
the surgeon told me it's because too much of bone has been taken out and of course some injury to the surround tissues and nerves, plus this is the second time i did this bone grafting from the exactly same site, so basically it's double injury to that area. D:

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

due to the previous experience, i know that surgeon will only let me discharge when i could able walk and eat (only swallow liquid-type food), so i requested to take out the urine catheter and tried myself very hard to get down from bed and walk to bathroom on the 3rd day, again my tears drop down even thou i know i shouldn't cry, but it happened naturally because of severe pain.
plus, the anesthesia effect made me nauseated few days after surgery and when i started vomit, it cause more pressure and pain at my nose and hips' wound. i was seriously suffered like hell.
and for my every single breathe, i have to place a small pillow over the chest to breath and couldn't take deep breath as well, to reduce the pain over the chest's wounds.

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

im breathing thru mouth cos my nose all blocked, it makes my mouth dry always so i have to wake up every hour to drop a few drops of water into my mouth to moisturize it.
but when im eating i can't breath @,@ that's y i always suffocating while eating or drinking. this is worse too!
i can only swallow soft-liquid-type foods, no biting and no cold drinks. *i miss grass jelly milk tea with bubble by chatime* i even difficult in swallowing medicine, so the nurse punch it and add with some syrup to make it sweet in stead of bitter, but still i dun have the breath to suck in thru straw.  :[

 this is the dinner the served me the day before surgery. since im staying at ward A1, so i have more choice for meal. i ordered this black pepper chicken with mushroom soup and it's tasty ^^

this is what they served me after operation. T___T

 big differences and i have no choice! 

all blanded and blended thingy! yakk!

have to finish up at least half in every meal in order to "get release" home by the surgeon.

 

 the wound over my hips *in case anyone misunderstood this, im not naked*

This is more longer than the previous scar, but i haven't open out both water-proof dressing and see how long is the scar, should do it one day before going for check up.

open up and see and do the dressing my own since i have extra cotton and patches.

✈ ♥♥♥♥♥

okay, the pain even last until now im still paining, this is the reason y i can't stand and walk for the past few days. 

now, im like in such a prematurely senile status! urgghhh!
i can't sit for too long, stand more than 3 mins,and i walk slow like an old folks! T_________T
i have no idea why till now im still feeling dizzy especially when get up from bed, mum said maybe anemia. :C
i almost fainted inside bathroom few times when i get up and go by my own. *i hate it*
have to give some spacing for rest in between when i go bathroom take bath, wash face, mouth cleasing...
i can't do it one shot, whereby i will feel extremely exhausted and my whole body started to stab pain within 3 mins time. this is exactly like an old folk do. WTH with me!!!
and i can't sit straight for a long period, i have to lie on something, i can't walk for a distance, not even from my room to the kitchen downstairs, i feel extremely exhausted and start to giddy zomg!

what the hell happened on me?! i want back my pretty healthy body!pls!!
im such a energetic girl and i can shop for the whole day long!!! okay, i miss shopping.
 

maybe they're one of the reason??

i have 6 type of medicine plus one more bottle codeine tables for chronic pain.

and this is my snacks.

since i have no more food choice, my lunch and dinner is forever plain porridge, i mean for now!

so when i feel like eating, this is all my snacks with mashed potato, soya, and pudding =D

the only soft thingy i can have =[

iphone casing by babe yin. thanks for this and the magazine you bought.

and thankiu so much for my relatives, all gave me so generous angpao and lotsa tonic.

and all my friends for the wishes =)

your wishes have made me even stronger! : >

and here, i have to thank you so so much to my dear mummy,

she acc me through out this whole process

take good care for me, bringing me and giving so much of love to me.

the task of caring me is such tough, and my mum really did it well. =)

in order to ease her and let her have a good sleep at night, 

i used to get up and walk very slowly by myself whereby she actually not allowed me to do so cos i always dizzy after get up.

she really take good care of me =)

mummy, thank you and i love you ♥♥♥

family support is always the most important part, and i received the 100% from my family.

there is still lotsa i have suffered and experienced, i just couldn't describe all thru words here.

the purpose of writing this post ain't to get sympathy or to showing off anything.

Im writing for my own in this such an unforgettable and tough days, 
✈ i have gone thru. =')

BEST LUCK IN SEPTEMBER ♥♥♥

Hi friends, Hi September! =D the very first post on sept 1, 01:20 ♥  was suppose to bedding now, seriously battery low tired to the max, but realize my face is like super dull recently, fml, even make up can't able to covered the dullness /,\ bi was asking me did i went for facial recently? how sad to said yes,i been! ='(
whatever, i'm now scheduling to masking everyday no matter how >,< so now bear with my superx sleepiness and blogging here while i'm masking. perhaps to see the changes for my face soon!

okay, september is such a great month for me =D do you know y? ppl who know me should be understand the reason!

note on the 13 of September!!! wow is my big day =D haha!! 

have a nice day then. xoxo ♥

 

went to S'pore again ytd in the early national day's morning and met the HR depart. stuff for the employment offer letter signing.

filled up so many forms like non-stop writing~ kind of feeling like back to school time, read thru the whole terms and cond letter and after that i signed.

Im now a member under Alexandra Health pte ltd., i had work hard for this and i well knew that my future won't be that easy too! got to well prepared myself to fix in this environment sooner. 

Xy recommended this Yeo's collagen drinks which i only found it in S'pore, so far never saw this before in M'sia.
i got myself apple flavor with collagen, had chosen this because the bottle is pink in colour. lolll
anyway, it tasted like pop drinks but is gasless.

besides, attended grandpa 70th birthday celebration last evening, this is one of our tradition whereby grandpa use to kiss grandma after cake cutting for every celebration e.g. their b'day and parent's day as well.

such a lovely old couple^^ teehee....how i which my future husband and I would be this endless happiness and lovely too.......♥♥♥

met my lil lovieee cousin xuan xuan everyday recently, she's so cute yet funny! we all can't bear with her glib each time when she spoke and when she showed us something funny.

♥ xuanxuan w/ her pretty mum, aunty Maybo.♥

 

hmmm....back to the 1st paragraph that i mentioned bout my face, see the diff tone of my face?! my dark circle is super dark and my cheek is so fair, this actually was commented by boyfie while we're on the way back from sg, mayb was the lighting of the place which made my face looks dull in order to let him made such comment.lollll self-deception.

naaa~ this is the mask im using now! Bird's nest mask by my beauty diary ♥

this was the reason why i chosen this mask for now.

look~ the function of this mask ：whitening, nourishing,more even-toned, completely suit with my face condition now wtf.

took few photos w/ mummy before heading to the family gathering few days ago.

one of the photo, ppl always repute her as my sister actually =[ i wish is because my mum looks younger, ain't that i look older,right? : /

 

w/ younger sister elaine

i dun think we both look alike.

my battery is getting low after few days non-stop party.

  i really love my family, you guys are too great i should said, had like so much fun and endless enthusiastic. 

 Enjoyed the precious moments w/ you all, felt warm♥♥♥

 okay, is time to bed now => go to charge my battery to 100% + additional 100% 

~,^ gunitez everyone

have a nice september's day  v(^_^)v

and stay tuned for more.

xoxo ♥

de 20s 30s 40s

 

i had  a good time with my dearest family ( :

life can be so great to be with you all.

cny dinner

we usually have had a dinner @ Katerina Hotel every cny as well as Landmark Hotel.
this year, i can only attend the Kat. hotel dinner, coz i will be back to KL on tmr morning  and the Land. hotel dinner is on Sunday night : ( i couldn't make it since my class is start on monday morning~ haiz* again... i have to criticize my stupid college! idiot! couldn't take MC or absent for this.
the purpose of me attending the dinner is actually to meet up with relatives and having fun. em.... cuisine comes to third.

Dinner at Katerina Hotel.

grandpa, grandma, daddy, mummy and three of us.

photo was taken by a waiter.

dear daddy and mummy

 

mum and Lawrence

three of us ( =

dear grandparent ^_^

the menu.

 

and the dishes...

1st was Snow Pear Yee Sang.

ya. yee sang with the snow pear. that's the special of the yee sang. taste so and so only. 

grandma doesn't like it, but i feel like ok. (maybe becoz i love to eat yee sang..O,o)

2nd dish. braised shark fin. my favourite too ^_^

and i'll add on plenty of vinegar inside. yummy!

Chicken in two paste.

steamed white promfret with soy sauce.

i didn't like fish so much, but i choose. 

like cod and white promfret is always my choice.

hehe...sorryyyyy that i can't manage to take other dishes photo.

so let show our photo. =P

 

Elaine, Aunty Yen (大伯母), mum and grandma

 Elaine and Selina (my cousin)

grandpa with his lovely grandson,Lawrence.

grandson with his lovely grandpa.

Uncle Wei and Aunty Maybo (小叔,小婶)

 

the pretties : P

see what Lawrence act =,=
i looks short : ( coz im the only one didn't wear high heels that day!

 

 one more =D

oops! not Lawrence, but a lil girl kacau =P

the end for this post and i got still a few cny post to go. 

going out now, meet my babe yin and louis. 

stay tuned, babes and dudes! see ya ( :