Brand new life

say hi to december, say hi to my new life. :D

i pretty hope everything goes smooth here and im should able cope it well. 

i was quite stormy yesterday, and i miss my family and you so much! * i bet you know who are the one* 

and i know my parents are superb missing me now.

they called me last night, and knew about my condition now, especially my "post-operation" condition, they was soo worry bout, and keep on asking me to postpone the job again. 

i got post-op infection in my nose, and i have to go for follow up and have some painful procedure done to drain out the bloody abscess. D: this makes my parents get extra worry.

when everytime, i heard their voice while they calling, i was holding my tears, pretending to be strong.

when the moments mum telling me "girl, you are a strong girl, you are so brave, but im still so worry about you, and i miss you so much" i heard mum choking back her tears, but i still pretending, i smile and told her im fine, im alright,bla bla,bla......and my tears started to drop too.

sorry, i ain't strong enough :'(   i miss you too.

okay, sorry for my-out-of-control-feelings. back to the topic.

the coming december will be my very first job experience. i have to move in sg few days earlier in order to done some procedure. i think it's good for me so i can start coping with the lifestyle 1st,what lifestyle? long-range walking and standing lifestyle. 

have been a long period i nvr stand and walk for so long. those days my shopathon couldn't compare with nowsday long-range walking. i used to shopping whole day long for continuous few days time, and i won't feel tired or any leg discomfort unless the shoe makes my leg pain. but, now, i got leg pain everyday. 

they are a part of my new world *sweet sweet*

i always wanted to pinkish my room, this is kind of dreamy and romantic for me : >

smurf and puppy by boyfie, puppy need to take bath @,@

  

took my uniform yesterday with 2 pair of shoes.

good fabric material, i guess should be hard to dry up since this few days was raining.

i was so in love with the Xmas edition mug and tumbler by starbuck.

it's so nice with the red color Xmas draw printed.

since i got a starbuck tumbler present by Ann babe last year Xmas, now...

thanks for boyfie for this Xmas gift in advance :>

those stuff which acc me recently. 

handbags, perfume and canvas shoe.

loving the photo beside, i got a nice hair color now! yeepee!!

 one of my favour place here. Clarke Quay.

i was there today, not for shopping but for my working pass in Ministry of Manpower which is nearby there.

the MOM i went is located at level 4, which got a super duple nice scenery from the building.

photo taken few days ago when i met up with babes...yin and zih at a new cafe located in BP called 

"BO EIGHT TEA" 

which is now the only shop that selling thousand layer cake in BP, but as we tasted, not that nice as Malacca one and it melt so damn stupid fast! X____X 

-sorry, doesn't mean to criticize it, this is a customer feedback-

beloved boyfie, we used to quarrel everyday when we never meet up for a period of time.

i miss you badly, i wish you know it, and i doesn't mean to argue with you each time, i feel bad.

please accept my apologize. 죄송.

lastly, self-portrait in mai room with mai this smurf which was gifted by boyfie, so i named it khoochy,since smurf family have Brainy, Clumsy, Grouchy,etc... haha kidding.

smile, keep smiling, this is the best medicine in the world.

the end for now.

pinky cross to post up convo photos either bloggie or fb. i nvr forget it. ^___^

xoxo

夜了 还是一点睡意也没有
明天 不对 是今天 又要离开家里 到另一个城市 朝着下一个目标前进了
开心？紧张不舍多一些些...
脑海里不断散过很多很多 不同的憧憬
我好奇 我是在期待吗 还是害怕
好舍不得家的温暖 离不开家人的怀抱
这次 不象以往有家人朋友的陪伴
和宜的工作时间病房也不一样
陌生的环境 我得靠自己努力
幸好回屋子 还有她可以陪我
还得自己去看病 没有妈咪的陪伴
不能随随便便跑回家
要靠自己加油了

# 犹太人说，人生下来就是为了承受苦痛。承得了多少苦，就成得了多少才。人的每一次成长都必须付出代价。#

我相信 我在成长独立中！
加油 媛媛:'>

Officially Graduated!

First of all, i would like to Congratz to all my group's mate, Happy Graduation!
Now, finally, i have graduated :')
Throughout the whole 3 years, i been work hard, study hard for everything. As you know, i always wanted to give up, felt like have joined a wrong course. Regret to the max but still i finished it.
 i used to be the one that others always think that i might give up and quit, they thought i can't able to survive in this tough job. i have to admit, sometimes, i do think so. nursing isn't easy like what i think before i joined. as most of my friends knew, i was regret joining when the 1st day of orientation! so can you imaging throughout the whole 3 yrs, i have been regretting!

thank god, i got my family, friends, and bi who always support me and give me so much of loves. Thank you so much!
and thanks a lot to my lecturers and clinical instructors, thanks for the good comment that made myself more confident and im glad that my result always good than i expected, this made me moves on too.

Things always can't be smooth like what we expected, i did face so much of  "choke point" which made me down to the deepness... studies, assignments, internship, sucks management, hostel,etc...

again, i would like to thanks to my parents, family who gave me not only financial support but also full spirit support along the 3 years time.
thanks to boyfie, who take care of me and gave me 100% of support too, thanks him for not giving me up, i used to vented my anger on him, but still he is very patient to me.
thanks for those who had make me happy,make me laugh, because of you, i have a great college life.
and thanks for those who had make me sad, make me cry too,because of you, i learns a lot and i realize how reality of a person can be.
thanks to the suck management too, because of you, i knew how can a management be suck in this way. :P

lastly, i should say, i have a wonderful and meaningful moments throughout my whole 3 years college life. i really learnt so much, not only from the nursing discipline but everything. =)

：：：Best of luck for a wonderful future. : ) ：：：

p/s : convocation photos coming up soon, stay tuned for more photos : >

A story of a pencil and an eraser

I saw this meaningful story, and i like it so much so decided to share here with you.

This is a story of a pencil and an eraser.

Pencil: I'm sorry

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad.

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. 

Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..." 

"we will never know the love of our parents for us till the day we become parents..."

Pencilly~

The pencil is a splendid thing

For which there's no replacer.

But better than the pencil is

The little pink eraser.

                  

                       -- Doug Florian

071111 ♥

是时候出来见见大家了...在家里闭关修炼了好一些日子,足不出户的,希望我有变白回~

不知道为什么突然很想用中文,但是中文退步了,英文也退步了,我完蛋了!

很多人很好奇我现在的样子,频频要我拍照给他们,还不怎么有勇气这么做, 因为还是肿肿的~ 

自从复诊回来后,就开始出门了~ 在家休养太久, 超级想shopping 的~ 可惜, 这里的shopping mall还是满足不了我的购物欲! : [  可boutique却多到爆!

昨天和妈咪去了一家常关顾的服饰店~ 搜到了一件超爱的西装外套 : D 开心!

这两件是最近的大爱 ♥

西装外套 >> RM149

白色蕾丝上衣 >> RM89

 both from LaQueen (if u are bee peerian, im sure u know this boutique)

怎么感觉用中文这样写 好奇怪 @,@

可以用回英文吗? 虽然英文也在退步中...╮(╯3╰)╭

new h.kitty bed sheet for my s'pore house. this design was chosen by mummy, since there are too many design and i was dazzling on each design, every design looks nice and cute for me, so mummy did the choice. =) nice bor??

oh yay, beside that is a flower-print pajamas by young hearts collection. im a  young hearts' fan too. their lingerie is so vivid, brisk in design, and the pajamas is comfort to wear for bed as well.i think most of my pajamas were by y.heartcollection. it cost around RM65.90 for pajamas, but i think they have some discount for it too.

one more h.kitty here. iphone casing grabbed it ytd too ^^

i saw one of my fb's frens having it, and im so cheeky to pm her and ask where she got it. and here i got myself one :))) teehee...

since im so bored when staying at home, i did some shooting for my ibaby with diff clothy on. 

total collection 8 of them, obviously im red lover. some are presented by frens. 

okay, lemme explain the middle photo. i was curious whether bikini able to covered my scar, this doubt i been concern for so long ~,~ so i tried on my bikini,and found that is so suit with christmas theme and suit with the casing beside.haha.*polka dots lover too*   this is hell stupid for trying bikini at home i know.i was too boring.

hmm...and luckily my chest's scar able to be covered, but not on the hips one. it looks quite obvious thou. T___T

  

yeshh, come to the end of year, christmas is just around. i seriously superb love christmas ambiance. this was my first time putting up a christmas tree and done it with mummy. : ) *previously were done by mummy and bro*

ok lah, lastly, post up a photo taken ytd with my still-swelling-nose. >,<
iphone front camera is suck!not clear at all :<

ya, em feeling much much better now.. maybe becos i get used to the pain and the discomfort. have completed all medication,yeah yeah, left the vitamin Daneron for nerves good. now trying to bear with pain and walk straight properly. wish i can get 100% recover soon :)

xoxo

shaine

你喜欢我什么?

有人在热恋的时候问自己的情人:
     [ 你喜欢我什么? ]
情人回答说:
     [喜欢你天真，喜欢你有梦想，喜欢你不肯随便妥协的性格，喜欢你的刁蛮任性，也喜欢你的聪明。]
 后来，她的情人不爱她了。分手的时候，她含着泪问他：
     [你为什么不再爱我? 我有什么地方不好? ]
 情人回答说:
     [你这个人太天真，你有太多不切实际的梦想，我们根本合不来，你太固执，刁蛮任性，完全不理会别人的感受，你常常自以为很聪明，我真的很受不了。]
 她伤心地问他：[ 你当初不是因为这些原因而喜欢我的吗? ]

我们总爱问自己喜欢的人 : [你为什么喜欢我? 你喜欢我什么? ]
 可悲的是，我们爱一个人和不爱一个人往往是因为同一些理由。
 你曾经很欣赏她不肯妥协的性格，你曾经欣赏她刁蛮任性，最后却觉得她这一切都过了头。
 不要问他喜欢你什么，将来他会因为相同的理由而离开你。

最近看了一本来子张小娴的爱藏系列散文，里面其中的一篇...
觉得挺有意思的，所以和大家分享~
我相信很多人都问过情人这样的问题吧!
老实说，我也一样，做过同样的事...即使现在知道也许以后如果分开会因为相同的原因，我还是会问!因为我不想连分开了也不知道自己做错了什么...
但其实我觉得 真正的爱上 是说不出一个所以然的~ 
就感觉吧~ 感觉对了什么原因也说不上， 但感觉没了，什么都可能成为理由...不是吗?
爱情 是不需要理由的理由... 我觉得...
 又有谁和我想的是一样的呢?

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p/s: proper post to be coming soon : /